My #80lbJourney – more than just weight loss

6 months in and at a standstill
I spent the past 6 months learning how to incorporate exercise and healthy eating back into my life. The struggle to keep up with these changes is hard, very hard. In the past month, through meeting with Michelle at Sculpt Health & Wellness Riverveiw, I have realized that I need to work on me, my barriers and my environment. ​My update today is all about our weekly meetings and how they are not focused on the scale, but on me as a person. Yes, I am weighed each week, but it is the hour spent talking that has made all the difference to me.
My Reality
You can know and understand the mechanics of weight loss (food and exercise), but those are not the only factors in why we let ourselves be unhealthy. Over the past month or so, through talking with Michelle, and being at a standstill on the scale, a switch flipped in my brain. How can I focus better on me? What is preventing me from reaching my goals and why are these barriers there? Yes, there are mental barriers, some of which are in physical form and can be purged. In order to focus on me, and my health, I need to clean house, literally!! We have too much stuff, we cannot live and enjoy what we have because of this clutter. It is not practical and it is certainly not healthy.
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Clutter, in my brain and my house
For years my de-cluttering mode has been in "on" and "off" mode several times. I am positive I am not alone here. This week I decided that it needs to be a permanent "on" mode. Why do I have a house full of stuff? It weighs me down both mentally and physically, so why do I let it pile back up. Most of what I hang on to is "in case we will use it", those are the items I am selling or donating. Then we have the paper and random garbage clutter (ie. kinder egg toys and McDonald's treasures!). Clothing is another out of control area that I really have a hard time with. Then there are toys...not even touched yet, but will get there by this weekend.
Where to start?
Over the years, I have started this purge and de-clutter so many times, only to give up. You know, you start to clear out one room or closet, only to end up putting stuff in another room and finding more stuff to de-clutter, and falling into to overwhelming trap of moving stuff around and not throwing anything out. You stop, defeated and give up. THIS TIME I thought long and hard about where to start. My closet was easy, take everything out, and only put back in what I actually wear....then 2 more laundry baskets of clothes came into the room and I have not been back to finish that purge. That is for today's task. Through figuring out where to really start this week, I decided that my Storage Room would make sense. It is a drop zone for boxes, seasonal items, stocked up supplies, tools, etc....there literally is a little bit of everything in there. This week I tackled the storage room, and although not completely done, it will be today. Then moving onto our Office/Craft Room.

Progress and Weight Loss

Since this will be a large project and an ongoing process, I will share my journey in purging through other posts. The reason I am talking about it in my 80lb Journey journal is that I know once this area of my life is tackled, it will help me to focus and set more goals for the weight loss journey. Being at a standstill has been frustrating, but realizing what some of the barriers are gives me a reason to keep going. With determination and the support and encouragement from Michelle, I will succeed.
What are some barriers you face, that maybe you didn't realize are linked to your health or weight struggles?
I started a Facebook page to share the ups and downs, recipes and tips. JOIN US THERE and share your thoughts in the comments below as well.

Here is my journey unfolding:

My #80lbJourney – Getting the hang of this…I think

My #80lbJourney - Getting the hang of this...I think

Different tools for sport on black background   The past month has been a learning experience for me when it comes to food, and looking at it in a whole new light. I am not just eating, I am fueling my body, so that I feel better, have more energy, can workout and sleep better. The mornings are where I see the biggest change. No longer craving coffee is weird, really strange for me. In the past I have had coffee first thing when I wake up, then at least 2 more before noon. Now, I still drink a coffee most days, but not always first thing in the morning, and I am not craving it. It is more habit than anything. Last week I posted this video update, have a look/listen (sorry for the poor audio). I was struggling with sticking to my plan. But got through it!

Thanksgiving weekend was looming all week, and I was a little scared how I would make out. You know what! I had turkey, sweet potatoes, apple & pecan coleslaw and a small dish of apple crisp. Everything EXCEPT the dessert fit into my eating routine, I ate at lunch time, so I was okay on starches, and by supper was not hungry, so had a light snack. My 18th wedding anniversary is today,so Saturday night we went on a date night. We went to the movies that night and ate NOTHING! I love theatre popcorn, but I survived without it 🙂 As you already know, on Sept 11th I started my 8 week challenge and today is a big day! Today, in addition to it being Thanksgiving & my anniversary, it is midway weigh in and measure day for my 8 Week Challenge with Journey to Wellness. When I started my journey in July (on my own, no guidance), I started cutting out little things, started working out occasionally at Airtime Fitness, and thought I was making all the right choices. I LOVE my workouts when I get there, and do more at home through their on demand classes, plus Deb provides an exercise routine for the 8 week challenge as well. SSUCv3H4sIAAAAAAAEAJ2QywrDIBBF94X+g7jOwmJoY38ldDFRCVITwUdKCfn3+ojgujvn3Lnj3NmvF4TwBE5x/ER7qmKttA7OW/DKrBGT7uRSKG+sAp1gYkdWsPPgg5MujTgRBy/n2Fvg6a//jKVGVchidEQJ465hLkyZVXR0fzvL41WjwCxX/s0LN0Gs1BJKkLG04vfHS7u00TYlpGlqCEKZJuVmOOhkoM1kHg9qlsYl4oHShjdKGO0frB8GxuidEBJ3Pn4VaI6nmAEAAA== Starting today, I am going to ramp up the workout routine. I am happy with my results, but feel I focused most of my energy learning how to eat properly, which is half the battle, and although I was working out, my intensity could be higher.

So here it is!

  • Sept 11th - 238lbs   //  TODAY - 230lbs  //  Down 8lbs in 1 month
  • Chest - Lost 4"
  • Waist - Lost 4"
  • Hips - Lost 3"
  • Thigh - Lost 2"
  • Calf - Lost 1"
weightlossaug_oct So overall I am happy. Since Day 1, back in July, I am down 20lbs. Starting at 250lbs, I had no clue what I was doing, just going for a walk was tiring, and now I am feeling so much better. My goal is to be down another 20lbs by Nov. 30th.  I feel confident in my food choices now, so now to get moving and moving more often with more intensity!!! I will have to try to get a video of my home workouts, when my son (almost 4) joins me. That kid can do the perfect Burpee! Me, not so much, lol. front1month back1month Goals for this week:
  • Continue on my meal planning, prepping and routine
  • Drink 3L water every day
  • Workout every day, even if it is just a 20 min workout, or half hour on the exercise bike.
  • Continue to de-clutter my office (mental health is important too, and clutter is stressful!)
  • Make plans for a date night again with hubby. We deserve it. He is on his own weight loss journey and doing great as well!
 

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7 Tips To Survive Your Period (and get to the gym!)

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Okay boys, this one is for the ladies and I am warning you now, it is about periods.

We are Women, we are Strong, and we have Periods.

Getting through that dreaded week each month can sometimes be hard. I know, because in the past I have been downright ill and in bed, especially when I was younger.

There are many factors that play a role in how you manage your period, and how you feel during that 4 to 7 days each month. Going to the gym and eating well, has helped me deal with my cramps and bloating. I actually felt somewhat normal this past cycle, and part of the reason was my recent lifestyle choices.

Here are a few tips to help get through those crampy, moody and bloated days:

  • Drink LOTS of water. Staying hydrated helps you everyday, but even more when you are not feeling at 100%. Warm teas such as lemon with honey, ginger tea and cumin and fennel tea are all soothing while hydrating.
  • DO NOT drink caffeine or resort to eating junk (salty or sweet foods).
  • Try to eat more fresh food, like fruit and veggies. Bananas are higher in potassium, which will also help.
  • Get moving. I know, who wants to even get out of bed, but I assure you, it will make you feel so much better. Grab your playlist and headphones, and go for a walk. BONUS: Exercise is known to make your period shorter.
  • Use a heating pad or hot water bottle to apply to your belly where your cramps are.
  • Get more rest. Rest does wonders for your body and mind. Make sure you give yourself a little extra during your period.
  • BE POSITIVE: Attitude has so much to do with how we feel both physically and emotionally. Periods are a good thing, they are part of being a woman, we all experience them, and you are not alone!

One of the tips above was to get moving. That is a tough one when you feel under the weather.

This summer I started to attend the gym regularly, after many years of not doing much exercise. It was not until the day my period started that I thought, "I can't do this". I almost stayed home, cramps lurking, a headache brewing, not to mention the fear of leakage during an intense workout in spandex. Even without the cramps and headache, it crossed my mind that I will be bending over, lifting heavy weights, and jumping up and down....oh my! We all know what happens when we are doing this while having our periods.  After a friend telling me she feels better and seems to have lighter flow when exercising each month, I gave myself a pep talk and went to the gym. It felt great, like most workouts and I was glad I went.

Since having my children I have used sanitary napkins and panty liners almost exclusively. I just don't seem to get the proper protection for leaks with tampons any more. Recently I tried Asana products, and they truly are different than any other pads I have used.

From the moment I opened the package, I knew they were different. They are so thin, I had never seen a "regular" pad so thin. Talk about great for stashing in a purse, or even your jeans pocket. The products also absorb moisture so fast that you really do feel dry, no matter what. And get this, they actually dispel odor, reduce comfort and enhance metabolism. ENHANCE METABOLISM, REALLY? I am doing that on my health journey with food and exercise, so now I can even say my metabolism is increasing while I am having my period.

Read more about the science involved and the awesome benefits of these pads.

  • Asana’s Biowave Advantage™ is a complete breakthrough in feminine protection.
  • Two vital components of Asana's advanced technology are tourmaline and silver, which act to reduce menstrual discomfortdispel odorincrease air circulationbalance the body's pH and enhance metabolism.
  • Health Canada has classified the Biowave Advantage™ layer as an antibacterial Medical Device Class 1 (which is a super hard designation to attain).
  • Asana also helps combat yeast infections naturally and is 95% biodegradable. Asana products are one of the thinnest on the market, yet offer the most absorbencyfastest rate of absorbency and best assurance of leak protection
  • No Chloride in the products
  • Their packaging uses Soya ink and is biodegradeable.

Asana is currently in a number of stores across the country and this month they are being stocked at Sobeys, Lawtons and coming to Loblaws layer this month.

Visit their website for more information on Asana and what they have to offer.  

We all want to feel confident during our period, especially when we are at the gym in our tights! 

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 *This post was brought to you by Asana. All opinions remain my own.

My #80lbJourney – Food, Fuel & A New Perspective

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The 8 week challenge was provided to me in exchange for honest review. All wording and opinions are my own.

This week it is time to take control of the FOOD I put in my body. I always thought I ate okay, except evening snacks. But I started the 8 week challenge with Deborah Hann and Journey to Wellness.  Well, let me tell you, it has been eye opening to say the least.

It is no longer about eating when I am hungry...it is about deliberately refueling my body throughout the day.

I don't even get hungry anymore, because I am giving myself the right food at the right times.

I am only on my 4th day doing this, but I can see such positive changes already!

No headaches, more energy and this morning, I didn't even notice I missed my coffee!

If you are following me on Facebook or Instagram,  you probably saw me post this picture.

August 2016 vs September 2016

The second shot is from Monday this week, its my "Before" pic for the 8 week program. I also did a fitness test and took measurements. I am most excited about how I am already feeling though.

If changing my food and increasing my water intake is making me feel this great so far...7 weeks from now I will be one happy lady, on a continued journey to get healthier each day by making the best choices for my body.

I am so very excited to see what changes will happen between now and the end of the challenge and beyond. Thanks for reading and I look forward to continuing to share this journey with you all.

Watch for recipes, meal planning and meal prep posts coming up as I continue to make positive changes for myself and my family.

My #80lbJourney week 6-7 – it’s not easy, but it can be done

Okay, so summer is coming to an end and school routines and Fall activities are going to be starting. Who is looking forward to this? I sure am. As much as I love Summer day tips and time with the kids, routines are out the window all summer for me. The past two weeks we have also had hubby home on his vacation, and we have been busy. Household projects and a few day trips, plus a couple overnights out of town. It has been fabulous family time and I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Halifax Citadel, WWI trenches display
Some fun in Uptown Saint John
All this being said, it is often hard to get back to the gym, eating better (or more consciously) and making time for yourself when there is limited family time available. I know I feel guilty taking time for me. There is always laundry to do, meals to make, floors to clean (mine should have been scrubbed long ago!), kids to entertain and work to go to or get done. This week, I am focusing on getting back into a routine that allows me to continue to make healthier choices for me. Even my kids have said I am happier when I work out. Sorry, they said I am "not a grumpy mom"! That's enough proof that I need the exercise, even when I am busy. Happy mom = happier family. Happier family = even happier mom....see where I am going? Over the summer I did make it at least 2 times a week to the gym, and sometimes my 3 times. I did do some at home workouts as well, but not as consistently. So, in addition to my new found love of the gym, I have decided to join an 8 Week Challenge, hosted by a trainer in Halifax. This is all done online. I will share all the details about this in a separate blog post, as I want to keep this to my update and results, plus goals for coming weeks. So far I am happy with my results. Just over 12 lbs down. I am getting stronger all the time, and setting activity goals and reaching them, so far. I still struggle with food when away from home. Bad choices creep in when those options are available to me. (Clams and fries yesterday were delicious, but I could have opted for something else, at least in place of the fries). I hope to maintain my weight until this weekend is over, then will be able to focus on new goals and my food decisions again. Routine plays a huge role in my success. I am looking forward to next week because of the routine it will bring back to my life. Besides shedding pounds this month, I have a goal to declutter our house. I have projects I want to do around the house, but I need to purge whatever I can to make room for us to enjoy our home again. Donate,  Sell and Trash piles will be set up in my house for the next few weeks 🙂 My goals this week:
  • Go to the gym 3 times
  • Drink 2L of water every day
  • Go through all our clothing and donate what's not needed
  • Get 2 rooms decluttered
  • Get my hair cut (a previous goal I did not follow through with earlier this summer)
  • Get started on my 8 week challenge to set goals and start taking control of my food choices and exercise routines.

My #80lbJourney Week 1a – the starting point to a healthier me

My 80lb Journey - the starting point to a healthier me

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Eighty pounds, that's what I want to lose from my body, to be healthier, fitter and happier. Don't get me wrong, I like myself, but I am not in love with how I feel and look. I have never been a person to worry much about my outward appearance or what others think of me, but lately, I have come to be very uncomfortable in my own skin. This is in large part due to the extra weight I have on my tall frame. Yes, I am tall, and my frame carries weight much different than someone shorter, but I am still very overweight.

Why am I sharing this? Simply put, I want to be accountable, so why not share my ups and downs with the world!?!
I also hope that by following my successes (and failures, let's be realistic!) that it may help someone else along the way.

Off to a shaky start:

About a month ago something clicked in me and I decided enough is enough. Something has to be done and some changes need to be made. So I went grocery shopping, spent over $160 on fresh food, no packages of anything with additives or preservatives. I came home and prepped all the food, cooked chicken, chopped veggies and stored all my fresh produce in containers in my fridge. Then, I pulled a few things out of the freezer to make a healthy meal for supper....and life happened!

Between my mad prep of healthier options, picking one child up at school and picking my mom up at the airport, I ran out of time to make my planned healthier meal. I was sitting at the airport with less than an hour to get home, feed the family and make it to swim team practice with my oldest child. Here's where I hauled out my phone and ordered pizza 🙁 Yup, goodbye healthy meal, hello my old friend, carb filled, greasy, cheesy goodness...straight to my hips, right?

Day 1 recap:

Not a complete failure, remember, I had a fridge FULL of healthier options, oh, and leftover pizza.

Lesson learned:

ALWAYS plan ahead and stop at the grocery store for a huge salad bowl next time.

Remember the chicken I prepped that afternoon, added to a salad would have been awesome! Also, don't sacrifice healthy options to please everyone.

Had I thought healthier, I would have come home, had chicken and salad. But the easy route was to order pizza and make everyone happy, with no complaints and a quick turn around at the dinner table.

My Goals Moving Forward:

I sat down the next day and thought about what I need to do to be successful in the 80lb Journey. It's quite simple.

I choose to make a couple changes to my routine each week, maybe more than a couple if I can stick with it. I will not start a "diet" or drastic weight loss program or exercise regimen. I NEED this to work for me, and I NEED it to last. 

Steps I have taken in the past month:

  • Started drinking more water - only 2-3 glasses a day, I was not drinking any before.
  • Removed sugar from my coffee - I was actually surprised that this change did not bother me at all. (that was about 4-6 Tbsp sugar a day)

This past month I have lost 4 lbs by making the decision to do these two things. It's not much, but I wasn't ready to take any big steps yet. From this point forward I will do a weekly recap to share my successes and struggles.

About me and my journey:

At 41 and 5'10" tall, last month I weighed just under 250lbs (249.2lb to be exact). Over the past 20 years I have been as low as 155lbs (when I got married), and gained 20lbs gradually for a couple years, hovering most of my pre baby years around 170-175lbs. I felt great and had very few body image issues at that time. How did I get to 250lbs,  (CLICK HERE) for those who like the details or to relate to my story. 🙂

Being tall I always had people say "but you carry your weight so well". As with anyone, when weight creeps up slowly, we just don't seem to notice and let it happen. You buy new clothes for work, and it is a size up from last time, so you pass it off as all stores having different sizing. That's got to be what it is, right?

When I was younger, I never had to work to keep in shape. I exercised, but not excessively once I reached adulthood. I started working a desk job, and even walked to work everyday, but that was when the pounds started adding up. That is when I am guessing my metabolism was changing. That is when it would have been the best time to adapt a more active lifestyle. That is when I could have made a difference and it would have been easier. BUT, I didn't and now I am 41 and ready to get a healthier me back.

Losing weight is the "goal setting" portion of my journey, but the ultimate goal for me is to be healthier, happier inside my head, and be able to keep up and join in with my active kids when they want to play, hike, swim, etc.

So, there you have it, a peek inside what I am doing and why. I know it's probably very similar to many people my age who have weight that they are not happy with. Please follow along and comment, support each other and enjoy this journey. I would be happy to hear about your successes and support you through your setbacks.

This week's goals:

  • Drink even more water.
  • No Sugar in my coffee.
  • No snacking at night (after 8pm).
  • Eat leafy salad one meal a day, minimum.
  • Start moving, go for a walk at least 2 evenings this week.

Check out my other #80lbJourney Posts here:

Proud Parent Moment – last day of school 2016

Proud Parent Moment - last day of school 2016

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I don't know about you, but I am looking forward to summer break with the kids... day trips and time with my boys.

Today was the last day of school 2016, and grade 7 for my oldest boy. One of the things that accompany the last day of school for the year is a report card. This year has been a year of amazing accomplishments for Lorne. He just completed his second year on swim team, his first year of Army Cadets,  and he played in a band and sang on stage in 3 different performances.

I AM SO PROUD OF HIM!!

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His grades have come from B's and C's to consistent B's and then A's and today...an A+ appeared on the report. This mom is extremely proud and happy for her son, and not just for the marks. The comments from teachers have been positive this year as well. This may not seem like a big deal to some, but he has had some struggles in the past.

I will admit that in previous years (since about grade 2), I would worry about report cards, hoping the teacher's comments improved or I could tell if his behaviour had become more focused. You see, my son was diagnosed with ADHD and Non Verbal Learning Disorder about 3 years ago. We suspected ADHD for a long time, but the diagnosis of NVLD was not expected. It helped to explain some behaviors and reactions we simply could not understand before. It also made it apparent that he learns differently than the majority, and would need a little help to excel. 

Lorne was always a quick learner, retained information to the tiniest detail and could verbally tell you about almost any topic out there. But then, on paper and when tested, he struggled. It was frustrating seeing comments on report cards about his lack of interest at school and his grades, although average, were just not where we felt he should be.

With the help of the official diagnosis, his teachers knowing about it, a computer at school and his personal knowledge that he had ADHD & NVLD,  he was able to overcome and persevere in school, and his grades have improved.

NVLD not only makes it frustrating for him to learn in a traditional school setting, it also causes some social anxieties and misunderstandings. You see, we are bombarded with visual stimuli in today's society; advertising, video conferencing, all our digital gadgets, even classrooms have the walls covered in learning aids. For someone with NVLD, this is stressful and distracting, working against them 100% of the time. Those visual aids are hurting the ability to learn. 

So, the comments from teachers letting us know how he is "really" doing, sometimes mean more than the actual mark on the report card. We tend to only hear from the schools when our children are having problems or misbehaving. When it is quiet, is usually means things are okay...but is "okay" enough? That is a whole other post for another time 🙂

This year, I believe Lorne figured out how to focus better and try harder to block some of the distractions. Have I said it yet? I AM SO PROUD!
Way to go Lorne, here's to many more years of learning and having fun.

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Do you have a child who struggles at school work or maybe the social aspects of being at school? Why not celebrate something that they achieved this year? Feel free to share in the comments. We can all celebrate together!

Quote Of The Day

Quote Of The Day: Apr 29/16

13516639_1217374358274073_556529293262764686_n This is one of my favourite quotes. Quote Of The Day "Life is 10 percent what you make it, and 90 percent how you take it." ~ Irving Berlin How true is that? We certainly cannot control everything happening in our lives, but we CAN control our reaction to whatever happens. As an over thinker, I have a hard time taking anything lightly and most situations I take to heart. My goal is to try to be happier and take things a little less personally and focus on more positive outcomes.

Who Needs A Milk Frother?

Who Needs A Milk Frother?

wpid-20151114_092603.jpg Love my Chai Tea, Yum! We just brew the tea in the Keurig and drink. That's great, but I LOVE lattes, and for some strange reason thought I needed a milk frother to make one at home. I was wrong. I have been wanting a milk frother for a while, and just keep forgetting to buy one. This morning as I opted for Chai Tea instead of a second coffee, I had an "AH HA" moment! Who really needs a milk frother? Really, all it does is "whip" up the milk to a froth. wpid-20151114_092501.jpg Hey, look, there is an empty water bottle on the counter. I bet if I pour milk in & shake it up a bit, there will be a foamy, frothy milk inside!  There you have it, my genius idea. Shake up a bit of milk in a bottle....that's it. Really. This is an easy and affordable way to make your own Chai Tea Latte. It may not be Starbucks, but you know what? I can make 20 of these at home for the price of ONE at the cafe! Make Your Own: HOW TO MAKE MY SKINNY LATTE

Losing Your Dad, a dance, a poem and lots of memories

Losing Your Dad, a dance, a poem and lots of memories I just bawled the whole way through this video. I can totally relate. This dance is an amazing tribute to Bindi's father. I remember losing my dad at a young age (16) and going through the motions for a long time, before it really hit home. I remember reading a poem at his funeral and everyone saying how strong I was. In reality, I would never have volunteered to stand up in front of a crowd, ever, but my dad would have, so I did it for him.
Do not stand at my grave and weep; I am not there. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning's hush I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there. I did not die. ~ by Mary Elizabeth Frye
christeningday My christening day in 1975. Don't you just love the suit on my brother! lol dad01 My brother, myself and Dad at our home in North Sydney. stories A few years later in our house in Gondola Point, NB. It will be 24 years (next month) since my father passed away after 2 years fighting lung and brain cancer. It seems so long ago, yet, just like yesterday. The passing of time does not take those precious memories away. Through the process of losing him, I learned so much, and also grew to respect my mom even more. I may not have shown it much over the years, but I am so proud of her for going on the way she has. My dad was her whole world and he was taken far too soon. She has become so independent, never looking for another person to fill any gaps in life. I asked her once why she never started dating again. She told me she already had the love of her life 🙂 How amazing is that!! The hardest times to be without him have been when those big life events happen, like graduating, getting married and especially having my 2 children. He would have been the best Grampa in the World. I am so lucky to have friends and family who knew him well, and share the stories and memories with my husband and children. Just think about how documented our lives are today. When we are gone, it will be so easy for our loved ones to look back and relive those memories. Our social interactions are digitized and there for most others to view. Kind of amazing to think about how our children and their children and so on, will be able to "see" our lives and experience some of those memories with their families. dad Dad on the boat (the Rob Roy), one of the last years before he got sick. graduation I remember Dad working hard on his Business Degree. Sitting among stacks of text books on the dining room table. Here is is on Graduation Day! I think I was about 13 here. The next photo was taken many years later when Lorne (my oldest son) was visiting my Dad's grave. He has always been facinated by hearing about Grampie Lorne (yes, he is named after my dad). lorneanddad It's amazing how watching a video of someone else's journey can take you back in time. Maybe, if you are reading this, you are thinking now about someone you have lost, or perhaps you knew my dad, and this will stir up some fond memories of him. Either way, I am not writing this to make you sad, simply sharing my thoughts on this Fall morning and thinking about how to make my memories of him live on through my children. Now to go dig out some more old photos! ~ Ruth Ann